It's sort of odd to think of connecting the words Makeup, journey, and life changing and use them in a sentence. However I am going to do just that. Makeup has become a big part of my life Journey both as a Hobby, form of therapy and as a creative outlet - to say it's been life changing would be an understatement. ****TRIGGER WARNING - POST TALKS ABOUT SELF HARM****
When I think back on it, I started using Makeup as an Outlet for when I was stressed out/depressed/or dealing with some kind of life event, back when I was a teenager. I don't know why but I find Makeup & putting it on to be quite soothing/relaxing (at times.) However it wasn't until 2012 that makeup became something vastly different for me - it became a coping tool & a form of therapy.
I unfortunately struggle with Self Harm. I say struggle because I think that as an Addiction it will always be a part of your life, whether you are currently struggling with it whether it's the act it's self, dealing with cravings. I think in some way you will always be in a state of coping with addictions & you should focus on healthy coping methods & strategies.
This is also why I say struggle in current tense because I feel like if I put too much emphasis in Recovery ---> Recovered & struggle --> struggled
I myself seem to fall into a deep depression each time I relapse.
Back in 2012 I had started Self Harm again and was actively seeking ways to try to find healthy coping methods. I was dealing with a lot of stuff at the time and incredibly messed up & miserable. To give myself credit I did do all the right things like actively seeking help. I got assessed and referred to mental health & was able to have an intake assessment with a Psychiatrist who due to patient load over whelming said he was only taking on Critical patients. I did see a counselor through Mental health too but frankly I just didn't click with her and wasn't getting anything out of it.
I also saw a Grief & Guidance counselor through services offered by a Local Women in need society. However I just couldn't commit to sessions with her since I was holding down a Nannying job at the time. So I then started looking around for ways I could do self therapy & learn new coping techniques.
Around Halloween I discovered Special FX Makeup tutorials on Youtube and it peaked my interest. After finding some really stellar How to videos and coming across one teaching me how to make my own liquid adhesive & use materials from home to make really real looking wounds An idea formed - the next time I want to cut, let's try doing some special fx makeup instead. Let's see if by creating some "real looking wounds" that would quiet the urge to make them real.
So alas my Makeup Journey began - these are the pictures of my very first time applying Special FX makeup
Since 2012 I have not self harmed in the form of Cutting and since 2013 I have not burned myself either. Last year I did have a bit of a mental break down where I totally lost it & ended up scratching (Like physically started clawing at my face) and ended up doing some bad damage. However, that's okay shit happens. Otherwise really the only thing I have done in the way of Self harm has been Wrist banging (or bruising) and I think of this as the very least damaging of ways to self harm and I haven't done it in Months!
I have continued to do Special Fx Makeup and as I have done so I have continued to improve. Every look I create I use it from my handy dandy Adhesive recipe and use only materials I find at home to create the wound (Like cotton from swabs & makeup pads, various materials like Tin foil & things like toilet paper, paper towels & Scotty hand towels (because for some reason they make wicked texture.) The only exception is stuff like face paint/grease paint/blood.
One of the coolest things I have done is make Bones using cut up drinking straws, and then using Spirit gum (eventually using Glue Gun) to shape them and covering them up in various materials - coffee filters, tissue paper etc. Then painting them using grease paints. And then creating a compound wound fracture on my arm! Here are some pictures of the creating the bone & applying it!
Instead I've continued down this crazy journey that blossomed from an Idea. To date the past 2 Halloweens I came up with this idea of challenging myself by searching out Makeup Contests & creating as many looks as possible to submit to as many contests as I could manage to enter! Last year I entered more (But had more time to do so) and won a prize too - a Home made Makeup bag filled with home made earrings, brush belt, and filled with $50 in Maybeline products!
Last year I started messing around with Full Facial Special FX here are two of my favorite looks!
The last three photos directly above were the Prize Winning looks!
This year I entered something like 31 and won a Prize - a book! However it was not for Special Fx Makeup but rather a Beauty type look! So here are those pictures - I was going for a Marie Antoinette look. Also please note I didn't make the neck thing, it was a necklace!
Lastly here is my most recent and in my honest opinion my best Special Fx Makeup from 2014!
So alas I have now created a blog as a new & different way to Show case my work & perhaps in the future add Makeup Step by step guides! I will also use this blog as a way to sort of centralize my makeup and what not. Add all my makeup links and stories and what not!
When I think back on it, I started using Makeup as an Outlet for when I was stressed out/depressed/or dealing with some kind of life event, back when I was a teenager. I don't know why but I find Makeup & putting it on to be quite soothing/relaxing (at times.) However it wasn't until 2012 that makeup became something vastly different for me - it became a coping tool & a form of therapy.
I unfortunately struggle with Self Harm. I say struggle because I think that as an Addiction it will always be a part of your life, whether you are currently struggling with it whether it's the act it's self, dealing with cravings. I think in some way you will always be in a state of coping with addictions & you should focus on healthy coping methods & strategies.
This is also why I say struggle in current tense because I feel like if I put too much emphasis in Recovery ---> Recovered & struggle --> struggled
I myself seem to fall into a deep depression each time I relapse.
Back in 2012 I had started Self Harm again and was actively seeking ways to try to find healthy coping methods. I was dealing with a lot of stuff at the time and incredibly messed up & miserable. To give myself credit I did do all the right things like actively seeking help. I got assessed and referred to mental health & was able to have an intake assessment with a Psychiatrist who due to patient load over whelming said he was only taking on Critical patients. I did see a counselor through Mental health too but frankly I just didn't click with her and wasn't getting anything out of it.
I also saw a Grief & Guidance counselor through services offered by a Local Women in need society. However I just couldn't commit to sessions with her since I was holding down a Nannying job at the time. So I then started looking around for ways I could do self therapy & learn new coping techniques.
Around Halloween I discovered Special FX Makeup tutorials on Youtube and it peaked my interest. After finding some really stellar How to videos and coming across one teaching me how to make my own liquid adhesive & use materials from home to make really real looking wounds An idea formed - the next time I want to cut, let's try doing some special fx makeup instead. Let's see if by creating some "real looking wounds" that would quiet the urge to make them real.
So alas my Makeup Journey began - these are the pictures of my very first time applying Special FX makeup
Since 2012 I have not self harmed in the form of Cutting and since 2013 I have not burned myself either. Last year I did have a bit of a mental break down where I totally lost it & ended up scratching (Like physically started clawing at my face) and ended up doing some bad damage. However, that's okay shit happens. Otherwise really the only thing I have done in the way of Self harm has been Wrist banging (or bruising) and I think of this as the very least damaging of ways to self harm and I haven't done it in Months!
I have continued to do Special Fx Makeup and as I have done so I have continued to improve. Every look I create I use it from my handy dandy Adhesive recipe and use only materials I find at home to create the wound (Like cotton from swabs & makeup pads, various materials like Tin foil & things like toilet paper, paper towels & Scotty hand towels (because for some reason they make wicked texture.) The only exception is stuff like face paint/grease paint/blood.
One of the coolest things I have done is make Bones using cut up drinking straws, and then using Spirit gum (eventually using Glue Gun) to shape them and covering them up in various materials - coffee filters, tissue paper etc. Then painting them using grease paints. And then creating a compound wound fracture on my arm! Here are some pictures of the creating the bone & applying it!
Instead I've continued down this crazy journey that blossomed from an Idea. To date the past 2 Halloweens I came up with this idea of challenging myself by searching out Makeup Contests & creating as many looks as possible to submit to as many contests as I could manage to enter! Last year I entered more (But had more time to do so) and won a prize too - a Home made Makeup bag filled with home made earrings, brush belt, and filled with $50 in Maybeline products!
Last year I started messing around with Full Facial Special FX here are two of my favorite looks!
The last three photos directly above were the Prize Winning looks!
This year I entered something like 31 and won a Prize - a book! However it was not for Special Fx Makeup but rather a Beauty type look! So here are those pictures - I was going for a Marie Antoinette look. Also please note I didn't make the neck thing, it was a necklace!
Lastly here is my most recent and in my honest opinion my best Special Fx Makeup from 2014!
So alas I have now created a blog as a new & different way to Show case my work & perhaps in the future add Makeup Step by step guides! I will also use this blog as a way to sort of centralize my makeup and what not. Add all my makeup links and stories and what not!
